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Because of your self-importance, the obsessive viewpoint that you are solidly alone as you face the universe, you have learned to cast into flesh billions of others to reflect and represent aspects of yourself both latent and very consciously chosen. This dynamic also prevents you from perceiving the limitless expressions of SELF in the boundless worlds created by each motion of your consciousness across infinity. From the Big Bang of first consciousness, the creation process has been infused with the essence of you. As this essence expands, numberless expressions have burst into existence and numberless worlds have been dreamed for all these 'you's' to live on. Each one is as valid as the 'you' that you have insisted upon being solitary and of ultimate import. That insistence prevents you from knowing about any of the rest.

In this moment countless versions of you sit and write down their deepest understanding and inspirations. Countless versions do not. They pursue other interests from mere survival to the heights of ecstasy. At any time you can open yourself to many of these expressions of you, if you are willing to set aside the drive to be meaningful, important and acceptable in the eyes of "God" (so to speak). The shields around your perception are high and strong after a lifetime of construction and bolstering. The survival traumas of infancy that inspired the conjuring of so many people to fill your world and keep you safe haunt you still. All the layers that have accumulated through your growth and maturation have added societies, cultures and humanity en masse to offer succor to your anxieties and allay your deepest fears. Still, with all of this humanity that you compare yourself to and prove your worth by, you stand alone and disconnected and very much vulnerable.

Releasing self-importance is no small task but genuine connection to the vastness of your Self is impossible without it. You will be able to measure your progress in this release by how many 'you's' you can touch and perceive, how wide a swathe of perspectives, desires and choices you can open up to. With each choice you contemplate and then act upon, many 'you's' choose the same and pull their worlds more into alignment with you, opening possibilities in your world in some of the ways that their worlds differ from your own. (Note: this is why making choices of high integrity are always to be encouraged as they pull more versions of you toward more desirable futures) If you choose a dramatic change with large emotional charge, like falling in love, you draw large swells of alternate selves into resonance. Joy spreads widely by its very nature. In this way spiritual self-awareness gathers vast amounts of your myriad selves with your moments of blissful inspiration. Your growth affects the entire gestalt of you and speeds up the motion of "I AM" back to itself.

Releasing self-importance makes it possible for you to see with real clarity that the world around you is truly a metaphor filled with people and things that are metaphors as well. The only Real thing is the SELF and it is infinite. It expands infinitely because that is its nature. Infinite unconditional love casting infinite worlds where all thoughts and feelings, all intents and beliefs, all possible expressions of the primal "I AM" that you are. That is REALITY!

Letting go of your identity as a separate being in a single solid world shared with billions of separate beings, will liberate you entirely.It appears to you that such a perspective will make your life a mad jumble beyond your ability to manage. It will, after all, change everything you are accustomed to seeing from your body outward. It will be a great act of courage every time you allow this point of view to infiltrate your awareness. For now, it comes only in bursts of intuition and short strings of ideation. Your fear driven addiction to stability and changelessness intrudes quickly in a kneejerk fashion and brings this awareness to a halt. Like a good game of "Snakes and Ladders" you careen back down to a more comfortable state of being. The painstaking effort to wrench your attention back to a more dizzying height requires great focus and speed of thought as well as step by step effort.

We realize that you have heard all of this before in many forms. Why then do you not make more progress toward becoming aware of SELF? Why is the stranglehold of self-importance so tenacious?

The SELF is so large and potent that it inspires great fear. Creating a small and somewhat controllable little personality as a shield to keep true awareness at bay becomes a compulsion very early on. Even before taking on a physical form, a bubble of personality. You flesh out the patterns of consciousness as your physical life progresses but broad divergences from pre-birth personality are rare and remain connected like the branches of a tree. Sufficient stress in life can make those branches less available as alternative traits. Only as you release your identification with personality in the present does the opportunity to develop characteristics of your own choosing present itself. Your personality expands and begins to reflect more of the originating pattern developed in the High Emotional Body. These patterns are less concerned with assuaging your fears and more lined up with the inner desires of the SELF. You begin to express your style of loving, of seeking fulfillment in life and work and family. The deep predilections of the SELF as it passed through the layers of awareness into form get more attention as your fears are set aside more often. This is the adult stage of human. Since these predilections are reflected in the child personality, the growth is not overwhelmingly obvious. Unless you turn mightily toward your highest ideals and aspirations, the changes may not be so noticeable. For those whose attention is ever turned outward into their world, the originating patterns hold true stubbornly.

What you will notice as your personality evolves and emerges is the development of joy and fulfillment in your present moments. Such marks the increased flow of SELF into your awareness. As personality gets set aside, so too does the infrastructure of fear. Your drive to control your experience erupts from this infrastructure and speaks loudly of your mistrust of who you really are. The more choices you make to open and trust the benevolence of your universe, the lovingness of your inner SELF, the more your personality erodes. Every day, you experience moments of insecurity, doubt of your own value as measured by your world and fears for your own safety. You are moved to weeping over images of your world and its pain that you yourself have projected into form. When you catch these ideations and emotions in the moment and revert to the faith and trust in the lovingness of SELF, they lose their power in the moment entirely and into the future a bit at a time.

Today, your grasp on these evolutionary movements is well beyond what was true when we began our conversations. More of your true SELF shines through into your world than ever before. Even the gasping shock of your recent transition through loss has eventually inspired a new and powerful burst into a more genuine expression of you-ness. You have made real headway in the work of dismantling the personality which has controlled your 'external' world all of your life. With this a new level of vulnerability is being experienced commensurate with the new level of trust that you hold in your safety being you.

This movement is the active side to your quest as meditation is the passive side. The insights you gain in deep states of meditation and the access you gain to higher centers of thought and feeling are always there for your consciousness. You simply block them by will even though you are not often aware that you hold that intent. Your identification with Tim holds those intrusions at bay. You cannot be infinitely large while trapped in that tiny body even with its billions of cells. You cannot let go and expand into SELF while holding onto the construct of personhood. Even beyond physical death that construct will stop you from full SELF knowledge and its natural expansion into total joy. It is that construct with all of its arbitrary and illusionary content that keeps you revolving back into cycles of birth and manifestation.

There is part of you that is presently in the gym working up a sweat and contributing to your health and vitality just as much as the part of you sitting here and writing down these words and contributing to your peace of mind. The multiplicity of selves that compose the real you are very much like the billions of cells that compose your body. They each have lives of their own without your conscious control and contribute to the life of the whole. You communicate with them all with each conscious thought and loudly with each physical action. They, in turn, communicate with you in the same ways. Choosing real natural nourishing food, playful and joyous activity and exercise that strengthens your heart and lungs and limbs communicates to the cells of your body and they respond with all the health and vitality you will allow. If you communicate fear and distrust, mindless choice of life activity and repeated experiences of stress and unhappiness, your cells will respond with melodramas of their own. The gestalt of the multiplicity of you that creates new interconnected universes with every major choice functions similarly. Sometimes you uplift the other aspects of yourself and sometimes they uplift you.

There are strands of probability in which your wife did not leave you. In those life-streams, the day to day emotional swells were less dramatic than what you were experiencing and that served to mitigate your decisions. In some of them there was healing of the relationship with its inherent awakenings and in others a slower but just as certain ending awaited. All of these pathways made impact upon your thoughts as you pondered what was happening in your world and helped you make sense and make choices moving forward. Both the joys and sorrows of these other expressions of you influenced your emotional experience as you chose how to feel and how to express. These other life-streams also influence how you have managed the emotional swells and ebbs since your life changes have begun. Timing as well as levels of passion, determination and despair have followed patterns impinged upon by the developments in the lives of these other 'yous'.

Because your life experience was leading toward a new burst of awakening, the bolstering of your determination was an overriding flow from nearly all of the gestalt of 'you's' in nearly all of the expressions into form. The core of you and its intents remain the foundation of each universe that you form along the way and all remain interconnected through that empowering core. No matter what present moment life experience you have, that vast resource of your creative core, the SELF, remains central to it. That deep inner knowledge is the root of all spirituality, all of the human relationship to the divine that you imagine. Take away the projections of humanity upon it, including its separateness from your personhood, and even death inspires no fear or trepidation.

All along the pathway from the "I AM" to what you think of as you, there are streams of consciousness emitted in limitless directions and dimensions. Each such stream participates in the creation of experience you would call life, even if you would be hard pressed to recognize most of them as such. At different junctures of this streaming emergence, different aspects of life burst forth to be explored. Once the process reaches the point where human begins, countless other expressions of consciousness have also been ideated, conceived, engendered and projected into realities, dimensions and worlds. Some are as solid as yours appears to be and others are not. Some are populated by beings far more sentient than you and others not. All, though, would be too foreign to intersect or be more than lightly touched upon by your imagination.

Focusing in on your world alone, massive streams of consciousness tune in to form the coherence which is humanity and its physical expression. Your planet and universe are constructs of human desire, deeply treasured and lovingly nurtured. Fear alone could not power such a complex and seemingly independent idea as a world. As the identity of 'Human' gains detail and eventually form, the vast array of possibilities which human can take also stream towards expression. All such expression springs from the same level of awareness and includes all of the potentials of the human condition.

Of course, this bursting process continues to produce more and more specific expressions and experiences into physical manifestations until "you" appear and your drama takes precedence in your experience. None of the processes by which you came alive have ceased. You are not the be all and end all after all. Consciousness continues to pour into and through the lens of humanity and waves of human possibility continue to express themselves. Nonetheless the pattern has form and tentative boundaries and the human condition remains recognizable.

What is important for our effort now is to notice that the streams of consciousness which comprise what you think of as you are so many more than you have imagined. Through the idea of you as individual, pour massive numbers of streams of consciousness. Your potential bursts from the confluence of these streams, including many from sources outside of humanity. The strange thoughts and dreams that you have experienced stem from this steady rhythmic flow of awareness. Out of the ideation of you flow numberless pulses of awareness toward Earth-like expressions as well. Their experience resonates with you because at this deep level they are you. Similarly, your life and its pulses resonate into other 'yous' and influence the details they experience. This occurs across dimensions and what you define as time. In any moment, the you that you think of as an individual is actually a vast number of conscious pulses from a vast number of 'yous' experiencing mostly human existence. Each decision is made by committee if you will. Each decision affects every one of its many, many parts.

As you have matured, you have enriched your awareness with far more than just the thoughts and experiences that have sprung from your life in the world. The life experiences of the myriad 'yous' impinge upon your awareness as well. Your narrow definitions of yourself have served to limit how much of this impingement process makes its way to your thoughts. Most often your "unconscious mind" holds and leaks the information into your life. Since you began working on consciously creating your life experience, you have enjoyed many unexpected turns that you are aware have sprung from this source. That is how "I do not know what I do not know" became your motto.

You have also expanded the flow of possibility that influences you from the other billions of human expressions that you believe share your world. The more inclusive and curious you become by opening to other cultures and other levels of consciousness expressed by current humanity, the broader the base of your life experience becomes. This sharing occurs at all levels of the human psyche constantly. Therefore, any expansive progress you make with your adventures in consciousness gets shared throughout all of human life and beyond. Certainly the same is true of all flows of consciousness. You are not special beyond momentary bursts of uniqueness without which infinity would not be truly infinite.

This discussion brings us to the huge chasm between what you think of as your Self and the SELF itself. Your idea of SELF is so absurdly human. It is really no different than the idea of soul. It is used by you to separate you from all other humans, leaving you space to be important and under your control (at some level at least). It is an identity that you have grown like a crystal in a jar adding facets with each thought and experience. You even give it your name and limit it to your little life to watch over and be responsible for. It is built like "God" is built in your inner need to be important and worthy of attention from outside yourself. It is definitely not the source of you.

'I AM' is the source of you. Its infinite flow powers every bit of you. In its infinite awareness is the total of life experience, not just yours; all 'yous' and all everything and everyone. Out of the SELF you select everything about you following all the patterns through which you arose. You have taken on an identity of your choosing and tried to replace the 'I AM' with it. Your constant dissatisfaction which infects your inner world is the result of that construct. Communing with 'I AM' brings you relief from that dissonance. Letting go of your tiny self is the key to all of your deepest urges.

In this present moment, vast streams of consciousness from numberless expressions of Tim are gathering inside you as you grasp for this reunion with the source of ALL THAT IS. Your resources are limitless when you reach for the elevated awareness. You have spun through this pattern of being countless times in countless forms, some fleeting and some lifetimes long just to have this conversation which draws such support from within you. When you walk away, this power which moves your hand will withdraw and you will again have to choose to engage it. Remember that there is far more going on in this process than meets the eye. You are changing the dominance priorities of the internal icons which will cascade into a new reality; seamlessly, of course, but no less transformed. In this moment you represent the totality of but one aspect of the human expression. Thousands of 'yous' are here in this instant craving the realization of truth that pours through this hand before you. Whenever you nurture the desire for wholeness you draw us all into your experience. Our expressions draw you in the same way as any of us expand. We are one in a microcosm of the 'I AM' which is ever-present and the true SELF.

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