So you have begun to "Grok" a deeper slice of our discussion lately. Experiencing the impersonal nature of your own nature changes things at fairly deep levels. It was hard enough to learn how to accept and work with your intimate involvement in the creation of your life experience. To embrace that the flow of awareness through your psyche into form that constructs your universe is a simple function of infinity and not your personal god-like choice is a whole new challenge.

As intimate as your thoughts may seem, as personal as your feelings appear, everything about your tiny little self is the result of the fundamental mathematics of a binary universe. You are the flashing cursor on the screen of 3D reality. When you step out of the personality driven viewpoint of Human, you start to catch glimpses of the process of creation that is ongoing through you whether you know it or not. Your every predilection has been built in from the earliest glimmers of consciousness.

When you bring the awareness of infinity into your bubble of personhood, it immediately begins to dissolve the defenses that you have formed to protect you from your fears. You experience the powerful expansion of your highest aspirations while being bombarded by your basest prejudices and terrors. This is a bit like military training! You get bolstered sense of unconditionality countered by an expanded sense of doom. Remember to shout Wheeee!

The shine of awareness will penetrate to the core of your fear structures as you progressively step through them. Kicking up the dust and crust and allowing it all to be conscious, without repression, is what liberation is all about. Embracing the fact that your value on the planet is not only not measured in human terms but is an illusion at its core, frees you to focus entirely upon joy for joy's sake. No amount of sage analysis can give you the pure freedom that one silent moment in communion with SELF provides. As we go together into the Spiritual Body we shall have so much fun!

Ooooops! Spilled the beans. That is where we are going next. It is what you signed up for after all. Try to remember that it is your home. It may be quite foreign to the physical, personal you. It is even fairly foreign to us in the Higher Mental plane. Its flows hit us and change us even as they do you. Well, not just as, since our nature is of a different ilk than yours in substantive ways (pardon the pun). Like you, we are challenged to describe and explain the nature of those flows as you have been to challenged to pass along the realm of Iconic formation. Our language is hardly adequate to encompass the pockets of infinite potential blinking in and out of the void. Our challenge is to nudge you toward mental expression into words of a most nebulous and vast expanding array of creativity. Meanwhile, you will gain an introduction to guidance from the layers of awareness that permeates all that you would regard as creation and so much more. While we can facilitate the flow of words, only they can elucidate Intent, the spiritual drive from which worlds arise.

(Fresh from a powerful meditation which included a seeming eternity of a serenade of "I AM" from every bit of creation. I had experienced direct contact with infinity before but never had it sung so overwhelmingly or so beautifully. Every iota of creation, every conception, every energetic flow of emotion and every particle of physical expression exploded in the joy of SELF-awareness. It has taken me nearly a year to describe this because it did not seem even possible for the inner sound of that to be "heard". I hardly believe it myself and questioned the real-ness of the experience for a long while. My first experience of infinity, many years ago, was somehow easier to embrace because I was so much less conscious during it. Although the touch of "I AM" has become familiar to me, this was not anything remotely usual. It was a kind of hearing but not musical. All possible tones at once and yet harmonious in that the underlying awareness was all of a Oneness. All tones built of the same ecstacy and all unconditional in the expression. I want to do this again and again. Somehow, though, each communion is a unique experience. Go figure!)

There now! You have had your introduction. Subtle was it not? All that is needed is your questioning and your quietude. Both have become more engrained by virtue of our conversations and your practice but that is where all of our efforts leave off. We can help you translate but little else. "Have fun stormin the castle!"

The High Spiritual Body is infinitely large. It is not bounded by the nature or requirements of creation. It is pure potential. That means that all possible creations exist within its field. The vast array of predilections out of which universes arise are the awareness of "I AM". They go merrily outward from each moment of "I AM" that spontaneously bursts from the potential into spirit. Constantly ongoing and forever complete, this emergence of consciousness from the potential of infinite expansion bristles with unlimited power. As you can imagine, your tiny world large as it seems, is as wee as wee can be when compared with the endless worlds that are contained within the High Spiritual Body.

Even so, the High Spiritual Body is a structure of a sort that is imposed by the on and off nature of consciousness. This blinking draws unlimited potential into consciousness with every pulse. Predilections form and differentiate and seek wholeness once again. The randomness of this pulsing transformation is overwhelming but crucial to understand, if for no other reason than to demonstrate that when your little world dissolves upon your departure, nothing is lost, only resolved. Wholeness is "achieved" in the realm of potential. What you leave behind only barely existed at all, so little of its potential was ever made manifest there.

Your entire universe and all of its related universes (as if yours is the primary) is/are predicated upon a single predilection of "I AM" in its motion toward SELF awareness. We can call that predilection Gravity after one of its predominate effects. The infinitesimal black hole that we mentioned earlier is a point of pure gravity around which physical matter forms and interacts. It is a point of "I AM" obsessed with the inward turn. It is fully conscious at a fundamental level and merrily spinning in the present moment. This is a pure example of potential energy, which is the measurement of pre-existing force upon objects.

There are endless varieties of expressions of "I AM" as its inward turning is impacted by both pure potential and by other growing points of consciousness being constantly generated in the spacious present. Countless streams form and head toward manifestation in response to "I AM" asking "What?" The shape of manifestation holds no end of possibility. These potentials begin formulation into the quality of awareness that we call Intent. From vague predilections Intent is a tiny step and the mere matter of conscious awareness in an infinitely repeated mechanical process.

Intent can and does go dancing merrily off in all directions, bouncing like a pinball off of and into other points of self-conscious "I AM". It is a marvelously haphazard process that results in every possible outcome in the infinite potential of consciousness. The fact that the consciousness at the core of every iota of creation is the very same "I AM", makes it possible for the individuated "you" to commune, by resonance, with the wholeness of infinite awareness. Your choice to do just that uplifts the whole of creation and fulfills the primal Intent of "I AM".

You have defined your personhood and all that it means to you entirely on your own. Even when it seems that the world around you has told you who and what you are, the choices have always sprung from the well of you. Made at deeper levels than you have been willing to explore until recently, these choices have supported a large and cumbersome web-work of patterns of thought and feeling that structure all that you experience. As your efforts raise the frequency of your whole world and your life within it, you have discovered how much of this structure came about and how to dismantle it enough to make the next step on your path.

At this point, as you get enough glimpses of who you are before assuming the human identity to step through all of these delusions, there is little left but acquiescence to primal forces that empower all of life. Of course, there is some difference between knowing your identity to be delusion and letting go of a lifetime of habit, endearing qualities and often debilitating fears. Time spent in silence looms more important than ever.

Moving on…
As you have observed in meditation, the cosmos reverberates with the constant creation of consciousness. "I AM" is an infinite chain reaction that bursts out of the void. The behavior of "I AM" as it interacts with other bits of consciousness and the endless bursting in the infinite flow is mirrored in your world as primal stuff forms bonds of affinity. Resonances and predilections form that are comparable to those formed by atoms, cells and life forms. "I AM" combines in formats akin to pair bonds, families, circles of friends, communities, nations and worlds. Clusters coagulate through resonance, mutual attraction, as the spinning proto-consciousness of "I AM" captures new streams, causing it to wobble, then vibrate and take on frequency. It is a simple, mechanical process that is constantly ongoing and shapes worlds given sufficient complexity. New worlds arise constantly just as your world is filled to the brim with the explosive joy of "I AM". With your awareness moving speedily enough, you can observe the effervescence of all matter as it is constantly being created.

This is your legacy and your future. You have ongoing and growing access to this awareness of the ever-presence of "I AM" with all of its expanding joy. It is the binding force that creates and maintains all worlds. It starts as an infinitesimal point of consciousness in the field of infinite potential and permeates All That Is, including you. Still, it is never an individual because it is created in oneness in brilliant bursts of self conscious jubilance in the spacious present.

When you commune with "I AM" you connect with the consciousness of the cosmos, your true SELF. Letting go of your tiny little personhood in your tiny little life is a small price for admission into endless creation. The concerns of your personal world will blunt your ability to use higher body senses which can experience the connection with the cosmic SELF. Feeling the flow of infinity and riding it joyously arises out of silence, not busy-ness. All of your prejudices and definitions that contain your life in the world constitute defensive walls that provide the illusion of control through which you barely hang onto safety and sanity. You also cover over the actual process of creation which could be participated in to your benefit.

Your meditations have taken on new depth lately. The movements that you perform prior to meditating are sharpening and directing your focus and your openness to whatever rises within you. This facilitates new insight and awareness. We suggest that you allow your creativity to play with more movements to bring energy into your heart center now. You understand the simple principles involved. Whatever you try to add onto your routine will refine itself as you go along. Keep in mind that while higher centers do have crusty places in your energy field, there are less of them and they are more mobile than in the lower centers. As you break up the hardened layers around your feet, the energy that you set into motion will impact other particle-like eddies, stirring them into motion so that you can draw them in and use them as you wish. If you stay open to becoming aware of all of the issues that they represent and inspire, you can gain a little more freedom with each session. Think of this as unpacking your emotional baggage and sorting out what to keep and what to discard (release).

Do resist the urge to move up to still higher centers rapidly. Each new component will move more subtle energies into faster motion. Going ahead in small steps here will provide more information over time and more growth of awareness. You will sense when the time comes to access your Throat and Brow energies. The Heart needs to make whole much of what has been unaccepted by you over your lifetime.

Everything that your world of experience contains has its roots in the Spiritual Body. It all starts with Intent which is a mechanical process of consciousness interacting with ITSELF and infinity. As we have discussed and experienced, "I AM" bursts out of the void in absolute jubilation. You can feel it taking place in any and every moment when you turn your attention that way. It is ever present! There are other circumstances in the experience of "I AM" as it grows in complexity through impacts from other points of consciousness and from the infinite flow. These are the developing predilections we have mentioned that start to vibrate and attract like awarenesses. As mechanical processes, there is no willfulness attached so the varieties that are thus created are without number. The frequency variations impart unique possibilities. The potential for unlimited creativity is explored constantly.

The nature of the spinning point of consciousness is binary. "I AM" bursts outward and then spins inward into the void, the "I AM NOT". As life burgeons in complexity and slows in speed of rotation (so to speak) the pathway from creation to void and back around takes on many shades of experience all colored by the two simple but momentous events. We have given great emphasis to the joyousness of creation and the explosion of SELF awareness in the moment. It is most enticing and can be very useful as a landmark on your inner travels. The experience of this explosion lessens as movement continues and eventually transforms into its opposite on the precipice of dissolution.

As consciousness moves into the void, it makes its way through a process of release toward total acquiescence. Although there are immense varieties of experience of this movement, the range of experience will be strangely familiar to all consciousness. Imagine if you will your own experience as your life circumstances have approached dissolution. Your personal predilections for how you experience the death of circumstances, has its roots in the primal predilections of spirit as its components blink off. If you have enough speed of awareness, you will observe layers of thought and feeling that repeat themselves throughout your life in patterned ways. Essentially, you grieve the coming end of the life you have known however great or small the impact of circumstances has been.

So there is the bursting of joy in new life and the sadness and fear of grief in its dissolution that runs universally throughout the experience of consciousness. In the very first spin of "I AM" is contained the entire unbounded universe of experience as it careens into and out of the void which is infinite potential. Powered by the expansiveness of Love and the contractiveness of Fear, pure SELF aware consciousness casts infinity into experience.

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